like pieces of a puzzle.
explanation
i process almost everything through the lenses i filter the world through, and most of the lenses i use are kins or ids. they make up my personality, my gender, my interests, and my general outlook and how i navigate my days.i have tried many organizational systems but found them lacking as they didn't draw connections between kin types and try to understand the relationship i have with them and the overarching themes that occur, nor did they represent how strong each type is relative to other kin types, which i feel is important to my own brain.my organizational system is new and a work in progress. it's one part autism, one part gender, and one part just havin' fun online. kins are divided into clusters based on their characteristics. each cluster is equally important, and they are named for colors to avoid the implication that any is more significant than another. kins are then ranked by intensity of experience or the frequency of their influence.all kins across the clusters are ranked relative to each other on a tier list. when a kin from one cluster is the most present, that entire cluster usually is stronger than the others, but i have struggled in the past with feeling like that diminishes the importance of higher level kins of different clusters, hence the tier list.this page can be viewed on desktop and mobile, but only desktop preserves in-cluster rankings (tiers are still correct). all text for character bios sourced from wikipedia, fandom pages, and official scripts unless otherwise linked.i love to talk about this stuff, so if you have any interesting ideas, interpretations, or questions, please feel free to reach out!
blue cluster
betty cooper
nancy wheeler
fitzwilliam darcy
anthony delfuego
kurt hummel
anne shirley
winifred foster
jean valjean
amy march
peggy carter
kirsten larson
betty
cooper
The quintessential girl next door, Elizabeth "Betty" Cooper is the third and youngest child and second daughter of Hal Cooper and Alice Cooper, living in the town of Riverdale. Betty's middle class upbringing is a world apart from the flashy lifestyle of her wealthy friend, Veronica Lodge.
"can't i do this one thing for me?"
Betty is friends with everybody, and is a loving daughter and sister. She likes to help the homeless, read to senior citizens, and rescue wounded animals and birds.
MEMORIES
❉ my canon is a mix of the 2015 archie comics, the 2016 jughead comics, and riverdale, seasons 1, 2, 3, and 7.❉ keeping in tune with the comics, riverdale was located in the midwest, specifically wisconsin, rather than upstate new york.❉ the world's timeline was some mash-up of the 1950's, the 1980's, and the 2010's, in terms of slang, technology, clothing, and culture.❉ most of the horrific and magical events of riverdale are not canon to me, but most of the character archetypes and relationships are. i do think jason was killed by his father when we were sophomores, but i think that was the only death.❉ archie and i were together until we were fifteen, when we had a huge fight and breakup because he believed i was becoming someone i wasn't. i turned to jughead, and archie turned to veronica, who was new in town, and coincidentally had all the attributes he hadn't liked in me.❉ jughead probably had feelings for me from the time we became friends as children, but we weren't particularly close until veronica moved in and pulled archie away from both of us. i genuinely had never had the opportunity to think of him that way. as soon as we started getting close, i started crushing hard.❉ i genuinely don't know why veronica moved to riverdale. it feels most likely that hiram lodge was arrested for white collar crimes and riverdale was hermione's hometown.❉ i was very jealous of veronica, and jughead hated how archie acted around her. it took us both a long time to come around to her.❉ when i finally did come around to veronica, she ended up being my best friend in the world, except for jughead. my third best friend was kevin keller, who i loved so very much.❉ i believe veronica and archie broke up, and i think it was because archie still had feelings for me, but i absolutely did not feel the same way.❉ kevin did not have the same issues he did in riverdale, he was much more like kevin from the jughead comics. kevin was blond.❉ jughead was from the south side of town, and i believe he did live in a trailer with his alcoholic father, fp. jughead was briefly homeless, and fp did pull his act together. gladys and jellybean lived separately from them, except for a brief stint when jellybean was about twelve.❉ my older brother, charles, was probably 6+ years older than me, and my older sister, polly, was 3-4 years older than me.❉ my mom was emotionally and verbally abusive, and to me in particular. i developed an ed because of her, and she was constantly competitive with me. she hated that i was in a relationship with jughead and tried to stop me from seeing him. she never had a thing with fp, and was 4+ years older than him.❉ i was closer with my dad who taught me about cars and often stood up for me in quiet ways, but he could've been a lot more protective of me. my parents divorced probably in the latter years of high school. my dad was not the black hood, who i don't think even existed.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ forsythe pendleton "jughead" jones iii❉ veronica "ronnie" lodge❉ kevin keller❉ cheryl blossom❉ antoinette "toni" topaz❉ ethel muggs❉ reginald "reggie" mantle❉ clay walker❉ josie mccoy❉ melody valentine❉ valerie brown
nancy
wheeler
Nancy Wheeler is a fictional character from the Netflix television show Stranger Things, portrayed by American actress Natalia Dyer. Nancy is Mike's older sister. Nancy starts investigating the disappearance of Will Byers when her friend Barbara also goes missing.
"is that supposed to impress me?"
Nancy's characterization has been positively received by critics, with particular praise awarded for how her character deviates from the stereotypical portrayal of teenage older sisters and young women in the horror genre.
MEMORIES
❉ the show is largely canon.❉ i blamed myself entirely for barb's death and i shut myself down completely after, for years.❉ i was never happy with jonathan. i felt pressured into a relationship with him. i don't think he ever had bad intentions, but i think he was not stable enough for a relationship. no part of the beginning of our relationship was consensual, from the photos he took to the alcohol i was handed by murray, who was a creep.❉ i never wanted to break up with steve. i felt like i had hurt him enough to respect his decision to leave without fighting it, but i did not want him to go. everyone told me to go to jonathan. everyone. i didn't know what else to do.❉ demogorgons fucking reek, and so does the upside down.❉ steve bought me a care bear for valentine's day in 1984.❉ mike and i were very close when we were little. i used to make him sandwiches. we used to build pillow forts in the basement.❉ i struggled to make friends, and more to keep them. i was pretty honest and blunt in a way that wasn't endearing, and i was also extremely quiet.❉ a lot of my emotional dysregulation stemmed around the belief that the type of love i felt from steve, and the freedom i allowed myself to have with him is what killed barb. plenty of it also came from never having a real sense of love for a significant other. my parents were honestly quite close, but there was no romance there. i don't think i ever saw them kiss or say 'i love you'.❉ i loved a lot of things that were 'for kids', but i passed it off by pretending they were things holly liked. i was a big fan of strawberry shortcake.❉ when i had bad flareups of nightmares, i would sleep with my revolver under my pillow.❉ steve took me on a date to see sixteen candles at the hawk, and it was extremely romantic. he had his arm around me, rubbing his thumb on my shoulder.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ steve harrington❉ barbara "barb" holland❉ robin buckley❉ mike wheeler❉ dustin henderson❉ jane "eleven" hopper❉ max mayfield❉ joyce byers
amy curtis march
LITTLE WOMEN
CONCORD, MASSACHUSETTS
blue cluster, 1st tier
Amy Curtis March is the youngest March sister in Louisa May Alcott’s classic Little Women, herself based on Alcott’s own youngest sister, May. Of all four March sisters, Amy is the one most concerned with adhering to the rules and acquiring the trimmings of high society. She longs to escape poverty, which she hates, and generally comes off as consumed with superficial and vain things in pursuit of keeping up with the Joneses.
"because they are mean is no reason why i should be."
Compared to her older sisters, Amy changes the most, from a kid who does try to do her best (though she sometimes does her worst), to a young adult who, yes, is still concerned with beauty and wealth, but also knows firmly what she wants in life and “prefers to drive,” as Alcott writes. Amy’s ambitious, yet practical; gracious, yet blunt when necessary. Lover of turquoise rings, pale roses, and silks. Hater of her own nose. Driver of her own destiny.
MEMORIES
❉ my canon is most like the book, with many elements of the 2019 film.❉ i think marmee was a little older and a little more stern than laura dern plays her, but every bit as loving and warm. she was a marmee you could believe at one point did have a temper.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ theodore "laurie" laurence❉ beth march❉ jo march❉ meg march
kurt hummel
Kurt Elizabeth Hummel is a fictional character from the Fox musical comedy-drama series Glee. Series creators Ryan Murphy, Brad Falchuk and Ian Brennan initially conceived of him as a fashionable gay countertenor who is routinely bullied at school. Colfer describes Kurt as projecting a very confident "I'm better than you" personality, despite being a typically scared and anxious teenager. Kurt's solos for New Directions tend to be songs—usually show tunes—traditionally performed by women, which best suit his countertenor voice.
"my body is like a rum chocolate soufflé. if i don’t warm it up right, it doesn’t rise."
GLEE
LIMA, OHIO
blue cluster, 1st tier
Kurt has received mainly positive reviews from television critics, with many saying that Colfer's portrayal stole the show from lead actress Lea Michele as Rachel Berry. James Poniewozik, writing for Time, deemed his coming out "beautifully handled" and praised the series for subverting expectations with Burt's acceptance.
MEMORIES
❉ seasons 1 through 3 are largely canon, but 4 through 6 differ slightly.❉ i hated karofsky and never felt safe around him, but felt so much pressure to be nice and helpful.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ blaine anderson❉ mercedes jones❉ santana lopez❉ brittany pierce❉ finn hudson❉ burt hummel❉ sam evans❉ tina cohen-chang❉ artie abrams
anne
shirley-cuthbert
Anne Shirley was born in the fictional town of Bolingbroke, Nova Scotia to schoolteachers Walter and Bertha Shirley, who passed from typhoid fever when she was three months old. After an abusive childhood spent in orphanages and working in the homes of strangers, 13-year-old Anne Shirley is a remarkably resilient girl with a unique spirit, fierce intellect and brilliant imagination.
"different isn't bad, it's just not the same."
ANNE WITH AN E
AVONLEA, PRINCE EDWARD ISLAND
blue cluster, 3rd tier
Despite her many obstacles in life, her challenges become her strengths. She is extremely empathetic, providing support to many people as they navigate grief, insecurity, injustice and other difficulties. Having experienced rejection and harsh judgement, keeps an open mind when meeting people who might otherwise be marginalized or treated differently. She loves to observe nature and easily connects to plants and animals.
MEMORIES
❉ the show is canon to me.❉ when i was younger and still new to green gables, there were times i would get so upset i lost my words and would just scream and scream.❉ matthew often found me hiding in the barn's loft when i was upset. sometimes jerry found me instead, and he would run as soon as we made eye contact.❉ i loved marilla and matthew equally, and differently.❉ i struggled differentiating between platonic and romantic love, and i think i felt bewildered by how gilbert made me feel.❉ i believe i also loved diana, and she also loved me, but i think by the time we were old enough to understand our feelings, we were both interested in other people.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ gilbert blythe❉ diana barry❉ cole mackenzie❉ matthew cuthbert❉ marilla cuthbert❉ sebastian lacroix❉ josephine barry
peggy
carter
Margaret Elizabeth "Peggy" Carter, also known as Agent Carter, is a fictional character in the Marvel Cinematic Universe (MCU) media franchise portrayed by Hayley Atwell, based on the Marvel Comics character of the same name.
"all we can do is our best, and sometimes, the best that we can do is to start over."
Carter is depicted as a British MI6 agent and member of the Strategic Scientific Reserve who became Steve Rogers's love interest during World War II. Following the war, she become one of the founders of S.H.I.E.L.D., eventually serving as the Director.
MEMORIES
❉ the world was more realistic and more tragic. steve was likely the only super soldier ever made, and there was no hydra, nor a red skull.❉ for me, steve rogers died when his plane went down. he was never found.❉ S.H.I.E.L.D. existed as a government agency, but there were no avengers.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ steve rogers❉ edwin jarvis❉ howard stark
fitzwilliam
darcy
Fitzwilliam Darcy Esquire, generally referred to as Mr. Darcy, is one of the two central characters in Jane Austen's 1813 novel Pride and Prejudice. He is an archetype of the aloof romantic hero, and a romantic interest of Elizabeth Bennet, the novel's protagonist.
"my good opinion once lost, is lost forever."
The reader gets a healthy dose of dramatic irony as Elizabeth continually censures Mr. Darcy's character despite the aforementioned hints (via the narrative voice and other characters' observations) that Mr. Darcy is really a noble character at heart, albeit somewhat prideful.
MEMORIES
❉ i am a mix of the book, '95, and '05 adaptations.❉ i looked the most like matthew macfadyen, but i had brown eyes and curly hair.❉ i was most probably autistic.❉ elizabeth's nickname was spelled 'lizzie'.❉ lizzie and i would get a little too drunk on wine here and there and
sneak away from events as best we could.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ elizabeth 'lizzie' bennet❉ georgiana darcy❉ charles bingley❉ jane bennet
winifred
foster
Winifred Foster is a girl longing for a life beyond her small village in late 19th century America. Her parents and her society control her life, and all Winnie wants is "something interesting - something that's all mine." She gets that and more when Winnie meets Jesse Tuck, a seemingly 17-year-old boy who's actually 104 years old, and his similarly immortal family.
"tied to a string, like a precious pearl."
Independent and adventurous, Winnie isn't made for her family's stiff formalities, but neither is she wholly ready for the dangerous world she's landed in. While she's enticed by the idea of eternity, Winnie's newfound sense of mortality makes her unsure if she'd really like to be 11 forever.
MEMORIES
❉ i am mostly from the book.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ mae tuck❉ angus tuck❉ jesse tuck❉ miles tuck
kirsten
larson
Kirsten and her family are immigrants to the United States from Sweden; she was born in Ryd, Sweden, a village so small she knew everyone there. Her family, having heard from her father's brother Olav about the rich land in Minnesota and his request to have more help on the farm, immigrate to make a new life in America.
"people are more important than things."
As Kirsten adjusts to her new life in America, she faces additional challenges. She must learn a new language, help her family settle into their new home and community, and adapt to American customs and traditions. Through it all, she remains connected to her Swedish heritage, finding solace and strength in the familiar traditions and values she has brought with her.
doody
delfuego
Anthony "Doody" Delfuego is the youngest member of the T-Birds; a small, boyish, and somewhat naive character with a disarming smile who often looks up to the other guys, particularly Danny Zuko. He is often seen as a bit goofy and gullible, and is typically seen playing the guitar.
"what's that playing on the radio?"
MEMORIES
❉ my canon is a mashup of a few different versions of grease, but grease: live, the 1993 london revival, and the original 1971 script of the musical are the sources that are the closest.❉ i was mexican. the t-birds were mostly latino and italian.❉ i was born january 20, 1942.❉ i'm not sure exactly where rydell was, but it was probably south of the river, and towards the west side of town.❉ i never came out, but i was definitely bisexual. i had an enormous, gut-wrenching crush on danny zuko.❉ either at the bonfire or the homecoming game, i let frenchy borrow my t-birds jacket because it was chilly. that’s when i started crushing on her.❉ i was originally bitter towards sandy because of her relationship with sandy, but i got over it. she seemed cool but i never had much one on one time with her.❉ i was kinda petty to kenickie. i was jealous of his relationship with danny. he never did anything to me and was actually pretty nice to me but i was kind of a jerk.❉ putzie and i sang ‘rock n roll party queen’ at a party somewhere. maybe jan’s house.❉ we all went to the beach once! frenchy and i shared a vanilla ice cream cone.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ frenchy lefevre❉ danny zuko❉ putzie❉ jan❉ sandy young❉ kenickie murdoch❉ sonny latierri❉ marty maraschino❉ betty rizzo
jean valjean
Les Miserables depicts Valjean's struggle to lead a normal life and redeem himself after serving a 19-year-long prison sentence for stealing bread to feed his sister's starving children and attempting to escape from prison. His life turns around when Bishop Myriel of Digne, from whom he steals valuable silverware,
"love is the garden of the young."
LES MISERABLES
MONTREUIL-SUR-MER, FRANCE
blue cluster, 6th tier
tells the police that he has given the treasure to Valjean. Out of this encounter, Valjean becomes a repentant, honorable, and dignified man. He becomes kind, a devoted father-figure to a girl, Cosette, who loses her mother, and a benefactor to those in need.
MEMORIES
❉ my canon is mostly made up of the 25th anniversary concert edition, the 2010 cast recording, and the book.❉ cosette looked quite a bit like katie hall, but she had mousy brown hair.❉ i was very quiet and usually secretly uncomfortable, but i think i was able to cover this up by actually caring about people. i didn't talk a lot and i was rarely funny, but i liked making cosette laugh and smile.❉ i had recurring nightmares about returning to prison or cosette being taken from me.❉ i met les amis de l'abc briefly, but mourned their deaths intensely. i watched éponine die, and would sob when the memory resurfaced.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ euphrasie "cosette" fauchelevant
yellow cluster
ferris bueller
willy wonka
hal jordan
joaquin mondragon
jack zimmermann
poe dameron
ferris bueller
FERRIS BUELLER'S DAY OFF
SHERMER, ILLINOIS
yellow cluster, 1st tier
Leisure Rules, at least, according to this charismatic high school slacker from Chicagoland. If Betty Cooper is the girl next door, then Ferris is the boy - amicable, easy-going, prone to mischief, and known to be well-liked by all, even the sportos, the motorheads, geeks, sluts, bloods, wastoids, dweebies, and dickheads.
"only the meek get pinched. the bold survive."
When his best friend and relative loner Cameron is feeling under the weather, Ferris makes it his mission to show him a life worth living, inviting his girlfriend Sloane along as well to skip school for a day in Chicago.
MEMORIES
❉ jeanie was the older sibling, and we were irish twins.❉ i did not have younger siblings, unlike the original script.❉ i had a crush on cameron, and so did sloane. i don't know when or how we found this out. at the end of the movie, sloane is trying to tell him this.❉ i don't remember much beyond the movie. i think cameron was okay.❉ i was half catholic (mom), half jewish (dad). cam was catholic. sloane was jewish.❉ i went to college in chicago. possibly uic.❉ i got jeanie out of trouble again after the movie ends.❉ cam, sloane, and i did go on a boat in the chicago river.❉ cam played hockey.❉ i definitely messed around with cam, but i don't know how far it went.❉ jeanie and i were actually quite close.❉ i was crazy clingy and always touching my friends.❉ i remember shoving cameron while he was sitting on the couch, holding popcorn just so i could sit down.❉ cameron almost always came to my house, because his sucked.❉ i was a huge audiophile, and loved playing instruments.❉ sloane and i started dating my junior or senior year.❉ i would help other people cheat, but my good grades were my own.❉ i swear to god i took latin in high school.❉ in spite of them both taking place in shermer, the breakfast club kids def didn't go to my school.❉ sloane's parents were divorced, and she used that to counter what cameron said about his own.❉ the deleted scene of us at chez quis spitting out pancreas is canon.❉ my dog's name was ruby.❉ i could play piano. i could not play clarinet.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ cameron frye❉ sloane peterson❉ jeanie bueller
hal
jordan
DC COMICS
COAST CITY, CALIFORNIA
yellow cluster, 2nd tier
Hal Jordan is a former fighter pilot who works for Ferris Aircraft as a test pilot, a member and occasionally leader of an intergalactic police force called the Green Lantern Corps, as well as a founding member of the Justice League, DC's flagship superhero team, alongside well-known heroes such as Batman, Superman, and Wonder Woman.
"stand back and peep the light show."
He is very confident and very driven, which is both his greatest strength and weakness. He doesn't know how to give up, and will achieve any goal that he sets for himself. However, he sometimes takes it too far, becoming reckless and obsessive in the process. He also doesn't know how to compromise, which has negatively impacted his family and career, and he struggles to maintain relationships and careers.
MEMORIES
❉ my canon is a mix, mostly based in comics universes. hard traveling heroes is broadly canon.❉ there was no one i wouldn't bed, but i was rarely romantic with anyone.❉ coast city was north of san francisco and south of sacramento.❉ my appearance was kind of a mix of doc shaner's hal, guy madison, paul newman, and jerma (no i'm not kidding).❉ sinestro and i had a brief, intense, and abusive relationship.❉ i remember john stewart and guy gardner, and i think i remember kyle rayner.❉ i believe the parallax and spectre arcs happened, but i'm not 100%.❉ i was probably genderfluid but good luck getting me to admit to that.❉ some of the people i messed with include sinestro, carol ferris, kilowog, bruce wayne, dinah lance, ollie queen, and barry allen.❉ ollie and i messed around during hard traveling heroes and sometimes dinah too. i loved them both, but especially ollie. dinah liked me fine, but ollie wasn't into me like that. ollie and i soured when i was homeless and he wouldn't help me.❉ i only slept with bruce wayne once that i remember, but i haven't ruled out a relationship between us. this was early, possibly even before i was a lantern. i didn't know who bruce wayne was. we were both drinking at a dive.❉ bruce was telltale bruce. i was head over heels for him.❉ dick grayson was very little when bruce adopted him.❉ i was frequently homeless and couch surfing after i got the ring because i couldn't hold a consistent job.❉ i had terrible depression and slept with the news blaring, surviving off of caffeine alone.❉ i loved clubbing.❉ barry was my best friend, and we tried dating but we weren't quite compatible. it would've been sad if it weren't so obvious so quickly that it wouldn't work.❉ i was close with jim when i got older, but my relationship with jack never recovered.❉ in spite of never being close with jack, i was close with helen as the spectre and i loved her so much.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ bruce wayne❉ helen jordan❉ barry allen❉ ollie queen❉ dinah lance❉ carol ferris❉ kilowog❉ john stewart❉ alfred pennyworth❉ dick grayson
jack zimmermann
A French Canadian captain of the Samwell University Men's Hockey Team, and the son of hockey legend Bad Bob Zimmermann. Years before majoring in history in college, Jack was predicted to go first overall in the NHL draft, but suffered a public overdose that ended his prospects.
"you need to eat more protein."
After graduation, Jack signs with the Providence Falconers expansion team where he becomes the Falconers' lead scorer and alternate captain alongside Marty and Thirdy as a rookie for the leadership that he brings to the team.
MEMORIES
❉ i was pretty much straight from canon!❉ i was insanely autistic. like just. so much autism. i largely struggled with social aspects and textural sensitivities, mostly related to food and clothing.❉ shitty and i were basically qpps, and probably messed around a few times.❉ shitty slept in my bed like at least 2 nights a week.❉ i genuinely hated kent parson after that epikegster. i struggled with him before, but i never forgave him for fucking with me like that.❉ i genuinely loved us history so much.❉ i really liked camilla collins, and i remember sitting quietly on a bench with her. i probably wasn't a really great boyfriend, but we ended things very amicably.❉ bitty was always so chatty, but when i was panicking, he could be perfectly silent.❉ i preferred being the little spoon.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ byron sterling "shitty" knight❉ larissa "lardo" duan❉ eric "bitty" bittle❉ justin "ransom" oluransi❉ adam "holster" birkholtz❉ chris "chowder" chow❉ derek "nursey" nurse❉ william "dex" poindexter
willy wonka
WONKA
THE GALERIES GOURMET
yellow cluster, 3rd tier
Willy Wonka is a fictional character appearing in British author Roald Dahl's 1964 children's novel Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, its 1972 sequel Charlie and the Great Glass Elevator and several films based on those books. He is the eccentric founder and proprietor of the Wonka Chocolate Factory.
"it's not the chocolate that matters. it's the people you share it with."
In the novels, Wonka has "marvelously" bright eyes, a high and "flutey" voice, a face "alight of fun and laughter", and quick little jerky movements "like a squirrel". He is enthusiastic, talkative, friendly and charming, but is sometimes insensitive and has been given to glossing self-criticism.
MEMORIES
❉ i was born in ireland and lived there for 12 years with my mom on a longboat.❉ from 12 to 22 i worked on a steamer with an american crew.
joaquin
mondragon
THE BOOK OF LIFE
SAN ANGEL, MEXICO
yellow cluster, 5th tier
Joaquin is a friendly, duty-driven, authoritative and confident soldier whose greatest dream is to be a great hero like his father was. As a child, he was given the Medal of Everlasting Life which prevented him from experiencing physical pain.
"what're you gonna do? ¿la musica?"
His experiences with the medal can lead him to be egotistical and selfish, eventually putting his own ambitions over the feelings of others. His lasting love for his two best friends encourage him to pick a path different than his father's.
MEMORIES
❉ my canon movie timeline took place over three days from oct 31st to nov 2nd. on the first day, maria died. on the second day, manolo died. on the second night, maria came back. the third day was the day of the dead.❉ i had crushes on manolo and maria, but i'm not sure i ended up with either of them, or possibly anyone.❉ maria and manolo moved into my house shortly after being married. i still went to fight bandits for a while, but i think they may have stopped me after i started getting reckless.❉ after losing the medal, i used morphine and cocaine to attempt to recreate the effects. maria was pissed about this when she found out.❉ i didn't feel positively about my mother or father. only my little sister, matilda.❉ i had very low self-esteem, but overcompensation made me seem narcissistic, and i ended up embodying that and forgetting i was self-conscious at all.❉ i was an alcoholic and smoked cigars.❉ maria spoonfed me menudo the first time i was sick after the medal. i didn't remember being sick and was certain i was dying.❉ if i looked at manolo with my dead eye, i saw a skeleton.❉ i had vivid and intense nightmares about killing bandits, and the guilt ate at me.❉ for some time, i wouldn't remove my eyepatch, and my wound festered.❉ without the medal i would've died of exposure in the desert. i slept with only a serape. manolo stole my first serape, so i had to get a new one. it was blue, and had an eagle woven into it.❉ manny and i used to run all over san angel together, and fall asleep in the shade when the sun was too hot.❉ i danced often, hugged often, and loved loudly.❉ i loved boleros and movies.❉ manolo and i practiced kissing and dancing when maria was in spain.❉ because the circumstances were weird, manolo and maria had another wedding event not long after the first. i got insanely drunk and danced extremely hard.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ manolo sanchez❉ maria posada❉ matilda mondragon
poe
dameron
The son of a Rebel pilot and a Rebel commando, Dameron grew up on stories of Alliance campaigns, and while his mother taught him to fly and to love it, his father had taught him that when he committed to doing something, one committed to going all the way or not do it at all.
"you're kind of a drag."
Noted to be a "bad liar" by fellow comrades much to his indignation, Dameron had a headstrong nature which often led him into trouble, and a proud countenance that, those who did not know him, could mistake for arrogance. Confident in his skills and in his mission, he sometimes displayed an impatience that arose only from a desire to fulfill the task at hand.
MEMORIES
❉ the force awakens, before the awakening, and the poe dameron comic are canon to me, but the last jedi and the rise of skywalker differed.❉ i saw leia as a mother figure growing up, and especially after my own mom died.❉ i was deeply traumatized by kylo ren invading my mind. i had nightmares about it.❉ some people, and especially rose and rey, made lots of jokes about me being old.❉ i made myself responsible for leading finn and rey around d'qar until they got tired of me. people called me their "cultural ambassador".❉ i loved helping other people but had no real perception of my own emotions, so i came off as very flirty.❉ yolo ziff on base made a recruitment poster with my face on it - jess and kare hung one up and never let me live it down.❉ i loved muran deeply, and his death ripped me up. it brought iolo, kare, and i both closer together and pulled us apart.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ din djarin❉ finn organa❉ rey organa❉ leia organa❉ iolo arana❉ kare kun❉ muran❉ jessika pava❉ snap wexley
red cluster
carmy berzatto
fox mulder
tommy jarvis
jim hopper
tom wambsgans
bill denbrough
carmen
berzatto
A talented young chef named Carmen "Carmy" Berzatto inherits his family's Italian beef sandwich shop after the suicide of his older brother, Michael. He comes home to Chicago to run it, leaving behind his world of working in Michelin-starred restaurants.
"i don't need to provide amusement or enjoyment."
He is left to deal with his brother's unresolved debts, a rundown kitchen, and an unruly staff, while dealing with his own pain and family trauma.
MEMORIES
❉ i was the youngest sibling.❉ i was autistic and adhd. i was most likely undiagnosed, but everybody knew there was something "wrong" with me, even from a young age.❉ i was infatuated with claire, but i don't think i truly loved her. i don't think i knew what love was at that time. i may have felt an envy for her, or wanted to be her.❉ i threw up after claire and i had sex.❉ i was probably either bi or aro/ace, and probably had some gender thing going on, but i really knew nothing about it.❉ i was extremely repulsed by mold. mold gave me meltdowns.❉ i felt attached to ASL because of my childhood stutter and because of verbal meltdowns.❉ i don't know if i felt romantically about syd or not, or if i thought she was more of a sister figure. i think she was somebody to me i'd never had before, and i needed her in my life to function.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ sydney adamu❉ natalie "sugar" berzatto❉ richie jerimovich❉ michael "mikey" berzatto❉ marcus brooks❉ tina marrero
tommy
jarvis
FRIDAY THE 13TH
CRYSTAL LAKE, ILLINOIS
yellow cluster, 2nd tier
Tommy Jarvis is a fictional character in the Friday the 13th franchise. He first appears in Friday the 13th: The Final Chapter (1984) as a child interested in special effects who encounters a seemingly unstoppable slasher—Jason Voorhees.
By the events of Friday the 13th: A New Beginning, Tommy's encounter with Jason has seriously affected his psyche, and he was put in several mental institutions, none of which were able to help him overcome his fear of Jason. He is eventually put in a halfway house, but unfortunately, at this time, a series of murders begin nearby with Jason being tied to the killings. Tommy's mind continues to slip again, seeing images of Jason haunting him.
"no, wait, you gotta believe me!"
MEMORIES
❉ i was born in '67 or '68. jason lives happened in 1986, when i was 19.❉ it seems possible that the last chapter and a new beginning more or less happened, while jason lives was maybe more of a long term bout of psychosis.❉ i almost exclusively went by tj or teej.❉ crystal lake was in illinois and not new jersey, but i don't think it was the same crystal lake that is actually in illinois.❉ i wore the large framed glasses from parts iv and v, but looked the most like thom matthews.❉ i was a camp counselor at camp crystal lake after everything. it's hard to say why i was allowed to do this. i'm wondering if it was a day camp, or a rehabilitative camp for children who needed support.❉ i was institutionalized from 12-18, and went through at least two halfway houses.❉ trish and i remained close even during the time i was institutionalized, and i lived with her after being discharged.❉ i developed a stutter after part iv. i struggled with 'f' and plosive consonants.❉ i was in speech therapy through my time at pinehurst, but my stutter never went away.❉ the tommy jarvis tapes aren't fully canonical to me, but i definitely struggled with emotional regulation with my therapists.❉ i was an okay shot with a rifle,
but never studied martial arts. the hand-to-hand combat in part v
is not canonical to me.❉ still water freaked me out. it reminded me of jason.
tom wambsgans
Tom is a Waystar executive who is promoted from head of the amusement park and cruise division to running ATN, the company's global news outlet. He is married to Shiv Roy, however their marriage is undermined by Shiv's infidelity and manipulation, as well as Tom's desire to be on her father's "good side."
"i have, of late, decided not to tarry too much with hope."
He enjoys his proximity to the Roy family's power, but is frequently dismissed by the family's inner circle. He ingratiates himself with those more powerful than he, but torments his hapless subordinate Greg. Although often humiliating himself, he proves to be patient and calculative, ultimately showing a very methodical nature in his rise to power.
MEMORIES
❉ i was bisexual and extremely repressed. it genuinely seems possible to me now that i was a deep in the closet trans woman.❉ i genuinely loved shiv, and she genuinely did not love me, or not the way i was looking for. i think at one point we were much closer to what i wanted, but i don't think shiv could ever bare herself to me that way.❉ shiv and i got mondale together, but i was the one who wanted the dog and arranging his care was my responsibility.❉ i had an extremely deep attraction to greg that i didn't know how to understand for a multitude of reasons. this manifested largely as wanting to possess him.❉ greg comforted me a number of times when i was drunk or high, letting me cry on him in dark bars and on curbs waiting for cars.❉ i remember greg laying in my bed with me. i was wrapped in sheets and crying, and he was just being with me. this was when shiv and i were getting divorced.❉ there was definitely something wrong with my brain, but i have no idea what it was. i speculate bipolar i.❉ by the end of the compliment tunnel at kendall's birthday, greg was steering me with his hands.❉ i always struggled feeling dominant and masculine enough, because at heart i desperately wanted to be taken care of.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
fox
mulder
Fox William Mulder is a fictional FBI Special Agent and one of the two protagonists of the Fox science fiction-supernatural television series The X-Files. Mulder's peers dismiss his many theories on extraterrestrial or paranormal activity as those of a conspiracy theorist and supernaturalist;
"nobody down here but the fbi's most unwanted."
however, his skeptical but supportive partner, Special Agent Dana Scully, often finds them to be unexpectedly correct. He and Scully work in the X-Files office, concerned with unsolved FBI cases that are often revealed to be supernatural or extraterrestrial in nature.
MEMORIES
❉ i'm canon through fight the future, deviate slightly from season 6 & season 7, and season 8 - season 10 (plus i want to believe) are not canon to me.❉ i retained my phobia of fire past season 1.❉ i started crushing on scully very early on, in 1993 or 1994.❉ i was definitely autistic, and i also suffered from delusions and intense paranoia, likely from PTSD which i staunchly refused to have treated.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ dana scully❉ sarah mulder❉ walter skinner❉ melvin frohike❉ richard langly❉ john byers
jim
hopper
James "Jim" Hopper Jr. is a fictional character from the Netflix science fiction horror drama series Stranger Things. He is the chief of police in Hawkins, Indiana, who, throughout the first three seasons, investigates the strange occurrences in the town. Hopper served in the Chemical Corps during the Vietnam War, where he worked with Agent Orange, an experience he believes to have led to his daughter Sara’s fatal illness.
"hey, what'd we talk about?"
STRANGER THINGS
HAWKINS, INDIANA
red cluster, 5th tier
For a few years after Sara's death, he was a homicide detective in New York City before moving back to Hawkins. Eventually he grows to be more responsible, saving Will Byers as well as taking Eleven in as his adopted daughter. He's rough around the edges and often reaches for violence as a first line of defense, but his soft underbelly is continually showing.
MEMORIES
❉ seasons 1 & 2 are canon, and season 3 & 4 are hit and miss.❉ i was kidnapped by russians, even though i think that plotline is dumb.❉ i was drafted into vietnam in the 60s.❉ i moved to indianapolis, and then new york, where i met diane.❉ sarah was spelled with an h.
she was born the same year as will.❉ i was not interested in joyce, but she was my best friend. even though joyce and i didn't get together, our families still merged.❉ eleven was a year younger than will, but they were known to the world as twins.❉ jonathan liked me fine, but he didn't want another dad, and i respected that. i became will's dad and not his.❉ i was never close with steve that i remember, but i trusted him with my child's life. i always hoped if she were in danger, she'd look for him.❉ when i got back from russia, eleven was so big. i felt so guilty that i missed so much of my children's lives.❉ sarah called grandma 'grammy' and grandpa 'granpa'.❉ my dad didn't care much for me, was fine with diane, and was indifferent to sarah. my mom loved sarah. she'd watch our car pull up and say "well, if it isn't little sarah hopper!"❉ i had intense nightmares of everything. always.❉ i had a bit of a temper flare up when i went off drugs. i ate a lot more then too.❉ i was in new york for america's bicentennial.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ jane "eleven" hopper❉ joyce byers❉ will byers❉ steve harrington
bill denbrough
IT
DERRY, MAINE
red cluster, 5th tier
Bill Denbrough was born in 1946, and is the older brother of Georgie Denbrough. Bill has a speech impediment, due to being hit by a car at the age of three, which leads to him being outcast. In late fall of 1957, Bill is suffering from a cold, and he helps construct a paper boat for his younger brother Georgie to play with outside, despite the downpour of rain. Moments later, Georgie's arm is dismembered by Pennywise in a storm drain.
"he thrusts his fists against the posts and still insists he sees the ghosts."
Bill is shown to be reckless and impulsive on multiple occasions, especially when he is face to face with IT. But despite his headstrong demeanor, Bill is extremely intelligent and shows great maturity. He has the power to pull the Loser's Club together through the horrors that IT sets upon them.
MEMORIES
❉ i'm mostly book bill mixed with it 2019. it 2017 and it 1990 are not canon to me.❉ i really can't tell if i was a child in the 50s or 80s.❉ stan, mike, and bev were my closest friends of the losers as kids.❉ i got much closer with richie as an adult.❉ when richie and i did get along as kids, stan hated it. i was really annoying around richie.❉ my stutter as a child was quite impeding, but went away after defeating it for the first time. it came back 27 years later, and while not as intense as it once was, it never went away again.❉ all of the losers stayed in contact after defeating it for the last time.
COMFORT CHARACTERS
❉ richie tozier❉ stan uris❉ beverly marsh❉ mike hanlon❉ ben hanscom❉ eddie kaspbrak
cross cluster tiers
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